Not sure whether to keep reading

Quite disturbing if you ask me like, it made me feel really uneasy... still, it's intriguing ugh

This is actually majestic, interesting to the point that when I was still reading it I remembered all of the gods' and goddesses' names (and we all know how hard it can get) faces, roles and personalities, though the (probably first?) rape scene really unsettled me... god, that was brutal

I started rereading this, but goddd it is too much. The way Soo-Young looses his mind every time they have sex makes me feel uneasy, it's as if he was on the verge of dying or finally losing his mind forever. I don't like ittttttttt my poor babyyyyyyyyy

... idk...

Quite a lot confusing from a certain point. I don't want to forget about it, but I don't think I'll pick this up again anytime soon :D