I can actually relate. I am awkward with strangers and clumsy wih making new friends. When I enrolled in high school, it was a new environment. There were some people I knew but most were strangers. It took months for me to make new friends. The same thing happened in collge. It takes time to slowly warm up to others. Now, I'm in graduate school, I have adjusted myself a little bit. It's a little bit easier to make small talks and make a conversation rolling. I do hope you find people whom you can be close friends with.
hi dear anon! I know the feeling of feeling awful for regretting stuff... but I also think this is something most (if not all) people go through. but about your situation, I know it's hard not to blame ourselves, but you shouldn't... I'm also an introvert and find it difficult to make longlasting friendships, and as we get older it really gets tougher... sometimes you get lucky and just click with someone and sometimes you don't. I don't think it's ever too late to meet new people though. I, myself, kinda don't look for it anymore 'cause I find it really hard to mantain relationships, I tend to disappear a lot. but I really hope you find someone you can open up and get close too. I wish this burden of yours becomes lighter somehow. hope you can feel my hug reaching you~ (づ￣ ³￣)づ
Thank you both :3
(⌒▽⌒) you're fine the way you are
I know this is a late reply but wanted to share my two cents in it. when I was younger I was really shy too and my current close friends spent a year annoy- getting me to open up (I'm thankful though). Thing is they are actually really different from me so I do feel the kinda-alone-even-though-we're-together thing. Now I'm in university and not much of a shy person anymore but despite this I haven't made much of any 'new' friends maybe cause I'm not actively trying to find one and having difficulty recognising people doesn't help BUT POINT IS I'm fine with it, I like my current situation with that few close friends. Now I'm not saying it's bad to regret and think of what-ifs I do that all the time too (*˘︶˘*) but at the end of the day if you really decide to change, remember that even though it may not turn out the way you envisioned, at least you tried... (I'm not exactly the best adviser thoug (=・ω・=)h╮(╯o╰)╭)
your story is very similar to mine (●'◡'●) and I totally agree. in the end I guess it's a matter of coming to terms with who we are and accepting it or deciding to make a change. I think there's no good or bad decision regarding this, as long as you feel ok with yourself at the end of the day. not saying it's easy though and it can take a lot of time
Hey, I can relate to that, too. I feel like as people get older it gets harder to make the same types of close friendships as you would at a younger age. So sometimes I feel like a failure for not being better at making many friends when I was younger. However, I'm grateful for the friends I do have. I don't think you should regret your past because the right people often find you eventually and stay in your life whether you're a talkative person or not. I think it's better to be yourself instead of forcing friendships. Plus solitude is not always so bad either... there are some people you are better off not getting involved with and who might have just added unnecessary stress or drama to your life. Try to accept things as they are now, be open to new friendships, but don't beat yourself over the 'what-ifs' of the past.
Just something I want to let out. Isn't it awful when your regret something in the past since you can't change it? I was shy, partly still am, and that has made getting friends hard. Sometimes I read these stories "I was shy but got friends through anime etc" but I didn't. Why? I blame myself that I never tried making friends through internet or anime conventions. I found anime/manga about 10 years ago. I don't have close friends though I do know some with similar interests now. Just they already have known their other friends for really long time so I'm just someone to sometimes (rarely) hang out with. Like I went to anime convention with my friend and she was all busy trying to meet people and texting them with phone. You know that feeling when you're with someone but kinda alone? I think I should have gotten friends way younger so then I'd be close with them. And sometimes I just wonder how all these years would have been like if I'd taken the chance and tried talking to people. Yeah, sorry, I've just been thinking this a lot and wanted to share. I don't know who I could actually be talking to.