yea maybe i'm projecting because the mom here reminds me of my own mom. but like the pain and isolation, and alienation of being made into a household slave - when the only person you can really feel close to (your child) may also be the ball and chain keeping you in a miserable position.
i just find it hard to be angry at my mom despite her doing the same and trying to kill me. she never had any grand motive, or was some evil villain. she was a sad and broken woman pushed to the breaking point by her husband.
im sorry mom. i wish you could have had a different life. I'm sorry for causing you so much pain. im sorry i laughed along when dad made fun of you for being moody and crazy when you had tried to kill yourself. i deserved better, but you also deserved better.
edit: I'm an adult now - i still have a relationship with my mom who still relies on us a lot for emotional support. it's good at times and bad at others. I'm going to get a job so I can get her out. its fine if you don't understand or agree but she's suffered a lot and i decided for myself that taking on the burden of loving her in spite of everything is worth it.
yea maybe i'm projecting because the mom here reminds me of my own mom. but like the pain and isolation, and alienation of being made into a household slave - when the only person you can really feel close to (your child) may also be the ball and chain keeping you in a miserable position.
i just find it hard to be angry at my mom despite her doing the same and trying to kill me. she never had any grand motive, or was some evil villain. she was a sad and broken woman pushed to the breaking point by her husband.
im sorry mom. i wish you could have had a different life. I'm sorry for causing you so much pain. im sorry i laughed along when dad made fun of you for being moody and crazy when you had tried to kill yourself. i deserved better, but you also deserved better.
edit: I'm an adult now - i still have a relationship with my mom who still relies on us a lot for emotional support. it's good at times and bad at others. I'm going to get a job so I can get her out. its fine if you don't understand or agree but she's suffered a lot and i decided for myself that taking on the burden of loving her in spite of everything is worth it.