Dion doesn't love Roxanna (long ass rant)

I read a spoiler, apparently Dion doesn't love Roxanna. He's desensitised to everything and only her tears make him feel "alive" in a way. Basically because of his upbringing no one really cares about him, he does everything he's ordered to do (by their father) even if it's killing but it's really weird because no matter what he does he's not loved. But when he killed Roxanna's brother (it was either him or Roxanna who killed ashil I forgot) he saw her cry and it hit him. "She's crying because of me," something twisted like that. He felt something and that's the only time he's felt emotion. He felt alive because his existence has affected someone.

So does he love Roxanna? No, but he does want her to acknowledge him even if it's hatred that she feels for him. He's a very complex character and his shitty parents really made him the twisted guy we see him as. He wants to see her cry because it's the only time he feels like he feels something other than "wow Dion you're a great son because you killed blah blah you're a great Agriche". The reason why he tried to kill Roxanna's mum by flinging that monster in her direction was because he wanted to create a lasting impression on Roxanna so he's never forgotten, so his existence was worth it. And he wants to experience that feeling of "living" that's why he keeps saying that he wants to see her cry. He DOES NOT love his half-sister, it's hard to explain but he doesn't want to kiss her he just wants to leave a lasting impression on the first person who's managed to evoke emotion out of him.

You might think "but he's made so many other people cry other than Roxanna so why's he fixated on her? He definitely loves her." I think it's partly to do with how they both have the same dad, grew up with the same 'education' yet she's still managed to keep a small part of her human aspect. Roxanna isn't a killer like the others, and she still experienced emotions and Dion has recognised that she's still managed to keep her "Human side" and that's interesting to him? Idk how to say it but her human side makes his human side come out.

I made a comment a month ish ago saying "I wish they weren't siblings because they're both hot" but now I don't see them in that way. They're both twisted, like Roxanna says they're both going to Hell lol. Their parents are shit, especially Dion's mum she doesn't give a fuck about him no matter how brilliant of an Agriche he is and honestly I think it's because of her that he's so messed up in the head she's a really bad mum. He's just a broken character when you delve deeper into his back story.

I kinda pity him really yeah he's disgusting but I really hope he gets redemption.

That was a long comment and I said "something" way too many times but you can get the gist of what I'm trying to say. It's all very psychological and I think that the twisted personalities of each Agriche makes this Manhua a really great read.