I'm also a survivor of child sexual abuse and now I get why i identify so much with the MC... I've never felt like I am worth being loved, I avoid any kind of relationship. Also I've always felt completely disgusting because I have a high s3xual drive (despite the fact that I'm a virgin). I used to punish myself for being like this. This chapter was very hard to read, even my brother's reaction was the same as his mom: "hide and try to get better on your own"... Anyways, it's completely accurate even though the trauma manifests different in each person. Be safe and if you are passing through a hard time, speak with someone. Speak until someone listens to you. One day someone will and you'll fell relieved to not carry that on your own. (also english is not my first language )
I'm also a survivor of child sexual abuse and now I get why i identify so much with the MC... I've never felt like I am worth being loved, I avoid any kind of relationship. Also I've always felt completely disgusting because I have a high s3xual drive (despite the fact that I'm a virgin). I used to punish myself for being like this. This chapter was very hard to read, even my brother's reaction was the same as his mom: "hide and try to get better on your own"...
Anyways, it's completely accurate even though the trauma manifests different in each person. Be safe and if you are passing through a hard time, speak with someone. Speak until someone listens to you. One day someone will and you'll fell relieved to not carry that on your own.
(also english is not my first language )