I think I'm eating a lot more than I used to even though it's Ramadan. Happy Ramadan and ...

I'm back :)

YAYYYYYY I MISSED YOU A LOT
WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN!?

drowning in my sorrows lmao
Anyways, i'm feeling better ig so i'm here again, what's up?

How have you been? I probably missed on a lot

I hope you're doing better now <3
I've been good. I'm just at my sisters house for the summer vacation and I haven't been on here as much either. You missed a ton lol. Some users got exposed for idk creating drama(?) about themselves and quicksilver got exposed for being a messed up person.

do you know who these users are?

Anyways, i am doing better now! Summer vacation is quite uneventful cause i've been feeling dejected and haven't done anything but i'll start studying (i have exams in a couple of months) and exercising soon.
How's it been at your sister's place? Anything new about you? (i could care less about the drama on here atp)

I don't know who these users are.
I feel like you're always studying and doing your exams. Is there any time where you get a break from doing those things?
Ooo I wanted to start exercising too but it's too hot for me. I can barely breathe when I go outside since it's so hot.
It's been alright. I just hang out with my nieces and nephews. Nope, nothing is new about me. I'm boring like that

thing is, i'm planning on studying abroad so i can't afford to get bad grades. The exams coming up aren't really necessary but will help me. ICT exams, i didn't do well last time i had them cause they were backed up with multiple exams + schoolwork.

I also want a vacation but... Oh well, i'll get that vacation later haha.
And b you're not boring! Look at me, all i currently do is study and sit at home

If you will exercise, do it indoors. Cool the room you'd do it in beforehand and don't turn on the AC during or right after you work out.

Oohh damn. Good luck with that. I hope you get into your dream school. Don't overwork yourself. Make sure to eat something, drink enough water, and take breaks <3
Aww thank you. At least you study unlike me lol.

I never thought of that. Thank you

About that... i haven't been taking care of myself properly like.. at all? Lmao if you consider 1-2 meals a day, barely drinking water and not moving/going out healthy then i'm healthy

I don't have a dream school but i wanna study abroad for sure, thank you tho!

WHAT!?!?!
WHY HAVENT YOU BEEN TAKING CARE OF YOURSELF!?!?!?

You need to be eat enough food, drink enough water, and move around to stay healthy and motivated. You're gonna be burnt out and exhausted before you take your exams. Girly, go eat right now and go drink water

Ahaha i think it's related to me being stressed yk. When i was in school (like- before summer vacation), i had no time to take care of my health (3-4h of sleep, 2 meals a day, barely drinking water) and it's followed me since then ig.

It's difficult to eat more but i'm getting there i think, so dw :)

Girly, you should take a break from studying from time to time. I love you a lot and I hope you feel better <3
Okay, it takes time to get better but I'm supporting you all the way (๑•ㅂ•)و✧
Take care of yourself

ily too <3!

I'd love to get a break as well and i have, for 2-3 months now! It's just that i've been very depressed for some reason (i think all my worries that i've been ignoring due to lack of time are catching up and... it's not fun, haha) so days are passing and i can't feel them cause i'm sad and all. Barely online or going out with anyone, struggling to take care of my mental and physical health, not a fun ride.

I plan to go out with my friends and go online more often, i went online here so... yeah!

I drank water a couple of hours ago! A full bottle! So yeah that's great :)

It's defo not fun struggling with your mental and physical health.
You're mental and physical health are super important. It takes a while but hanging out with your friends, talking about your struggles with the people you trust, and eating will definitely help your mental health.
Idk if it'll help but maybe you should plan out a schedule, like eat breakfast in the morning, study at a certain time, take a break, hang out with friends, etc. But remember to change it up a little bit.
That's awesome! I'm so proud of you <33
Also, I might not be the best at talking but you can always come to me if you wanna talk about anything.

See here's the thing... I'm quite reserved and i dislike talking about my problems. It actually makes me feel uncomfortable, even me sharing this here feels like i'm.. idk, attention seeking? That it's unnecessary, i mean there are other people struggling even more than me and you don't hear a breath from them. All i'm doing is bringing negativity to people who are already struggling, especially with the pandemic.

^longer than i thought it'd be but... yeah.

I also barely talk to my bff anymore, which makes me upset cause i'm like... her big sister. She has no friends where she's at (the country's just like that, at least the area she's in) and is also at a terrible mental state. I wish i could be more positive to talk to her more and cheer her up but all i'd do now is bring up terrible topics unintentionally, i'm scared to not be able to help.

^that was also longer than i thought, wow.

Anyways don't worry, i'm used to dealing with shit alone. I'm getting better, as though i'm my own therapist :)
I'm waiting for the day i wake up and go "Damn, today's great!" but alhamdulillah.

Babe, talking about your struggles isn't attention seeking and comparing your struggles with other people isn't right. You shouldn't be invalidating your struggles just because other people have it worse. Everyone goes through things and all of them are valid (including you!)
I understand that it's hard for you to talk about your struggles so you can take your time on it. Talk to people when you're ready and I'm always free to talk if you want to! Also, you are definitely not bringing negativity into this!! It's 100% okay to talk about your struggles, nothing is wrong with talking about it! (If you wanna talk about this privately then dm me anytime)

Try reaching out to her first. How about you talk about your favorite shows, foods, books, movies, favorite places, etc.?
(I have to go somewhere rn so I can't continue but I'll finish when I come back)

Well... I'm not specifying that there are people who have it worse, i'm saying that there are people, some struggling more than i am, who just never tell anyone. Think about it, they induce less stress, right? Sharing anything negative makes me feel like i'll drive away my friends, ruin their day and/or make them struggle with me. I'm just not that type of person, yk?

I think it's because of middle school, a time where there were rumors about me and i had no real friends. The only "friends" were people who used me. Later on, i got 2 "best friends" who i introduced to eachother and they slowly got closer till we became distant. Never talked to them about it cause i'm a pussy and i'm suffering the consequences seeing them together in posts/tagging eachother/talking to eachother. A painful reminder i was nothing to them.

Enough of all that, i'm fine, i'll live. All of this is in the past and i'm growing up anyways so i shouldn't sweat it, really. All of this bs is coming to mind because i'm stressed.

Anyways "have to go somewhere" Ooooo where

I'm back :)
It's okay if you don't know how to help, you can always just be there for her. Talk to her, let her know that you'll always be there for her and such like that.
Just so you know, you don't need to deal with it alone. You can tell people you trust any time you want.
Inshallah you'll have amazing days everyday and be happy :)

I went to the store with my sister. Took a while but I'm back