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Guru Of Awesomeness April 26, 2016 1:29 pm

So I've got some things in mind, and I don’t know where else to go for this, but I brought this here because the people here are usually cool and supportive. So, me right now: I'm at work hiding in the bathroom in the midst of an anxiety attack. Like, an actual anxiety attack: feeling of dread, heart beat increasing, about to cry type of deal.

I don't know, a lot of crazy crap happened these past few weeks: 1.) I left my shitty family and now I'm crashing at a friend's place while looking for a place to rent, but I feel like a burden and what's more I keep thinking of how much they probably don't want me to be there; 2.) I've dropped two classes that I loved taking this semester (Chem and Chinese) just so I can start working full time and overnights at my job to get a place; 3.) I don't even know if the place I want to rent will actually go through, so I've gotta prepare for the possibility of being completely homeless.

Like jeez... what am I doing with my life? I barely started adulthood and it feels like I'm already fucking everything up. What is there if I can hardly cope right now? I just don't know...

Responses
    Ichi April 26, 2016 1:42 pm

    Im sorry about your situation and i pray that you overcome this obstacle. In regards to your friend why dont you tell them what you feel? about you staying there and about what your thoughts are.

    Miscommunication often leads to misunderstandings and unwanted arguments.

    dont give up please keep on walking you can get there.

    jaime April 26, 2016 2:11 pm

    Its not just you Guru :) alof of people who are just starting out without family to back them up. I know that after I left home and got my own place as well as a job I totally lost it as well. you just gotta find your grove. It will work out.

    saher26 April 26, 2016 2:14 pm

    Please don't give up. God is with you. I agree with ichi that you should tell your friend about your situation. Please also remember that we are all here with you.

    KyoZaNa✿ April 26, 2016 2:46 pm

    Oh my.. *Hug* Be Strong! I know how you feel. Anyway, don't worry too much, just solve it case by case. Everything's gonna be alright! Many people who succeed in life right now, they also had to get through some terrible hardship. Fighto!

    kyaaa April 26, 2016 2:48 pm

    i know it's hard, but please don't give up. it will be alright, you are working, you go to college... there is worse, it will get better.
    like they said talk to your friend about this situation, try to work out with them, and i know it's hard but be optimistic, don't lose hope.

    we are here for you if you want to talk

    NaTori April 26, 2016 3:09 pm

    Just tell your friend how you feel. If you just sit down and tell them what's going on and how you feel, that will better help them understand the situation. If you don't speak up, no one will hear you.
    You should see if you can find a roommate. I think that'll make it easier to find a place. Try and see if you can find a friend to move in with you, that way living expenses will be half and half and you don't have to work so much and you can take those two classes that you enjoy.
    Life is a struggle. Sometimes you'll fall down a couple of times, but you have to keep getting back up. Eventually it will all work out. It may be hard right now, but just give it some time love. :)

    KyoZaNa✿ April 26, 2016 6:39 pm
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    Reality bites April 26, 2016 6:47 pm

    Take some deep breaths and think, you have a job. That is a positive. you start to make your life from this point, talk to your friend. find out how long you can crash there. Can you get housing on campus in the dorm?(emergency situation). look around for fin. aid for college cost. there are other ways to cont. class. and you can still get credit for it. esp. Chin. (ON line can be cheaper). Chem. also. You can do this will not be easy I know bec. I got thru. college with little or no family help. 16 hour weekend job is no joke, Ive done them.No breaks, parties, ect. no life, you study and you work. every thing I went through was worth it. I never want to eat another can of soup again. I am posting this to let you know you can do it, you are not alone, others have done it already. you can do it too. I hope this helps you. good luck.

    KyoZaNa✿ April 26, 2016 6:53 pm
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    KyoZaNa✿ April 26, 2016 7:09 pm

    Yeah I agree with 'Reality bites' that you can do it!
    I also had ever been working & studying while having 2 bros in my care. It's the hardest time of my life as if I would cough up blood.

    Guru Of Awesomeness April 26, 2016 11:39 pm

    Thank you guys so much... like seriously, I needed this