I reread this and f*ck I understand the story more its been 5 years I think but boii this mde me cry at 3am

I reread this and f*ck I understand the story more its been 5 years I think but boii this made me cry at 3 am, Im trying to get over this and I still don't know how much this story played with my emotions ( I now need to watch some funny memes cause I can't seem to smile) anyways I don't know if I'm just emotional asf but It really got me through sh8t