I don't know how the story will continue from here but just from what I have seen it's hur...

I don't know how the story will continue from here but just from what I have seen it's hurting me to read this. Even though I love Sakyo Aya's works, this manga is really making me question her mindset. She created a plot where Shoyu (uke) had a messed up outlook on life and couldn't even have a single relationship for 12 YEARS. All thanks to the seme who blamed him after raping him. His actions traumatized Shoyu for 12 fucking years! Just looking for him does not warrant forgiveness. I want him to grovel on the ground with tears, apologize for all the hurt he caused and make up for it by devoting himself to Shoyu for at least 12 years or his whole life. That bastard had the nerve to get in front of him after 12 years, say he likes him, and not even understand the aftermath of his mistakes. Sensei if you really plan on the seme and uke to end up together I really hope you considered how much of a horrid act the seme committed.

Sorry for the long rant. I'm just really pissed.