This chapter and past chapters made me cry so much. I felt like it was something that I can never get from my parents anymore. I can't just tell them to apologize to the words they told me when I was a kid that made me fear trusting and confiding with people because they'll just think I'm rebelling and they can't even remember the things they said to me.
I'm still carrying the pain that I felt when they didn't care when I got sick nor what did I do in school. The pain I felt when they didn't pay me attention even though I did my best. Everybody told me that I need to let go of the feelings and memories in my past but it wasn't easy. Because the words, my parent's reaction towards me and their disinterest is the reason why I am this kind of person. Pained but going strong.
This chapter and past chapters made me cry so much. I felt like it was something that I can never get from my parents anymore. I can't just tell them to apologize to the words they told me when I was a kid that made me fear trusting and confiding with people because they'll just think I'm rebelling and they can't even remember the things they said to me.
I'm still carrying the pain that I felt when they didn't care when I got sick nor what did I do in school. The pain I felt when they didn't pay me attention even though I did my best. Everybody told me that I need to let go of the feelings and memories in my past but it wasn't easy. Because the words, my parent's reaction towards me and their disinterest is the reason why I am this kind of person. Pained but going strong.
P.S. Sorry for being dramatic (╥﹏╥)