fucked up but i think i get it. you don’t want have expectations and get your hopes up only for it to inevitably fall into pieces, so it’s better to not have any at all and skip the high because it’s not worth experiencing the low - if that makes any sense.
his self image must be so warped that he think it’s better to get past that initial ‘pretence’ and straight up skip to the beat down. im guessing that with his conservative upbringing and the reason for taehwan’s initial disgust at him, he’s internalised a lot of guilt and this is his way of dealing with it to punish himself
fucked up but i think i get it. you don’t want have expectations and get your hopes up only for it to inevitably fall into pieces, so it’s better to not have any at all and skip the high because it’s not worth experiencing the low - if that makes any sense.
his self image must be so warped that he think it’s better to get past that initial ‘pretence’ and straight up skip to the beat down. im guessing that with his conservative upbringing and the reason for taehwan’s initial disgust at him, he’s internalised a lot of guilt and this is his way of dealing with it to punish himself