hi! yes, i researched this before and it is totally normal, it's because of the suppressed feelings that we have and intrusive thoughts also has a part on this. there are a lot of factors that can affect this such as trauma or exposure to r18 materials on a very young age ^^
ig it's normal to enjoy such. i also don't have any issues reading such heavy themed yaoi. i do enjoy it especially if the execution is great and as long as it's necessary and is helping to develop the story. plus i also don't a give a fuck most of the time, somewhat like a prepared mindset? like, "this isn't real and i don't want to do this irl." by that, i get to enjoy reading stuff because i'm not stressing over how morally gray it is. besides, it's only fiction. ╮(￣▽￣)╭
the exposure is so real i started my journey reading those 90's bl with excessive rape and abuse lmao
heard its a healthy coping mechanism for traumatized s/a victims
it really depends tbh, i don’t like it when it’s just brushed over and they end up happily ever after or when the victim’s reaction isn’t realistic. (this is probably controversial but bj alex was like that for me)
i do have a problem with how recurrent it is in the bl genre tho, i feel like it’s too often used when it isn’t necessary to make a character morally grey or whatever (under the greenlight shows how unnecessary it is really well).
overall i think it’s fiction and it’s not that deep most of the time like ppl can just enjoy whatever they want as long as they’re not being problematic irl
personally i wouldn’t say i enjoy seeing it per se, i’m just a sucker for dark stories, psychological manhwa and such so i think it’s good when it’s explored well
in painter of the night i was actually quite triggered bc of how relatable it was, i feel like it showcased toxic relationships well enough and that despite being abused, one can still love their abuser.
I personally don't like reading about that unless it's taken seriously, but I don't have a problem if somebody does.
I would never want the stuff in a lot of the smut I read to happen to real people. What really appeals to me is the fantasy, it's fake and often full of things that are physically improbable at best.
Does people really find pleasure/enjoyment reading rape and abusive yaoi? I also don’t have an issue reading those and can’t find myself hating on them. Is this really a thing?