Idk og raeli tried to kill mc multiple times. She was also ungrateful for her parents who really cared about her and just wanted her to be happy, and she didn't put any effort into changing her life and tried to take the easy way out
She feels alienated from her family, like they don't understand or see her. So for her it's better being someone else than being unseen for the rest of her life. Also she tryna kill cuz she sacrifice everything to be the mc yet her old body becomes mc. Of coz she going insane. And she is like petulant child that can't see consequences for her actions. She so tired she wanna her circumstances changing fast. I guess i love rotting for the anti hero (￣∇￣")
I somehow very sad about Beatrice (real rali) ending to be seen, to be loved, to be the mc , i can relate without, since her personality is introverted, she used to not being notice, she feels alienated from her fam, thus she craves love and attention so much she did unforgivable deeds, the moment she stop shaking means her desperation heightened. She trying to change her fate but sadly on expenses of others. She probably didn't know she will end up a murderer just by changing soul, its gravely devastating. I feel she so relatable, i wish her ending will be better, as to quote ursula, oh u poor unfortunate soul. ┗( T﹏T )┛