long story short Murano is people’s pleaser and the type that gets pressured by society’s norm. and the jealousy towards okkamisan probably leads to dependency and comfort place for him and maybe to the extent he loves him but in denial since it is not fits to the society, having same sex love. thus, he is pressured that he hurt himself cz he wants to be with ookamisan but he rather die(?)
long story short Murano is people’s pleaser and the type that gets pressured by society’s norm. and the jealousy towards okkamisan probably leads to dependency and comfort place for him and maybe to the extent he loves him but in denial since it is not fits to the society, having same sex love. thus, he is pressured that he hurt himself cz he wants to be with ookamisan but he rather die(?)