Even in the first life he didnt truly love rapiel, they got together because he was afraid how society would react with an alpha-alpha pair. He didnt come from an elite family so he was very conscious of what others think of him. He was mad and punished rapiel as a form of denial that he is actually attracted to another alpha
He held feelings for Raphael, but he settled. He was able to substitute Raphael for Aelock(I forgot how to spell his name lol) because they looked similar. I’m pretty sure this season already kinda covered his view on Raphael through the dreams, no?
In one of Klopps dreams, he picked up Raphael after he was attacked and the first person who came to mind was Ael and he got the two mixed up
So, did Kloff love Rapiel in the first life? In this second life, I agree it looks like Rapiel was the second choice. But in the first life, Kloff was driven mad because Rapiel died. So were those feelings genuine? Or was it just out of spite directed at Aeroc?