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Starry sky?

"a cruel god reigns" might be the worst and best abuse depiction you could find. What exactly are you looking for, if you have any examples?

i dont really have any examples, i just wanna have a mc i can relate to :( sorry I know that's like not helpful at all sorry

but if i had to say what I'm looking for, I would prefer if the relationship were between a girl and guy, around the same age no family and all that

Not sure what sort of abuse you're looking for, but this one is straight?
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/there_s_a_rat_in_our_house/

Also there's a couple BL ones that you might consider? Both completed, happy ending.
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/stigma_marloong/
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/crash_into_me/

sekine kun no koi might be helpful? possibly. oyasumi punpun forces the reader to relate no matter what, so thats also a good one. there were times when i wished you were dead may also fit? im unsure, you might be able to find something by looking at the recs on this page https://myanimelist.net/manga/1162/Bitter_Virgin/userrecs i do strongly encourage reading "a cruel god reigns" even if it doesnt quite fit what youre looking for exactly

thank you! will do <3

thank you!!!