Omg same!!! I love that there is someone else like me with this problem.
right?? and the way she explained what she likes makes me melt because girl same!!
Reading this I said to myself awe......(▰˘◡˘▰) this is what I want. I want to try all types of pleasurable sex with that one true partner. Tho I wanted to try toys, as a virgin I want to be opened up by my husband. I want to feel hot real human sexual connection and not by a toy for a first. I want to try different places, positions, kinks, s&m. I want to be made a mess of by a dominant sexual partner.
This is why I love Fifty Shades of Grey. All the guys I have met all seem like the selfish types in bed. Only thinking about their own sexual needs. Its not easy to find a man like the male lead in this manga or a Mr Grey from Fifty Shades. It hurts at times being lonely. I would love to put myself more out there but Im needing to have more than one surgery, due to major health reasons. Theres no way I can put energy into dating when my health needs to be the priority. What my mind knows is for the best still, my heart and body cry and ache for more. ╥﹏╥
this is what i was looking for for a partner in life—i want both love and pleasure be given to me by one person who feels and is looking for the same thing as me but it’s hard because i’m scared of meeting people lol