I don't think natuski loved seno maybe later but he only felt everything when he read seno...

I don't think natuski loved seno maybe later but he only felt everything when he read seno's diary? So he started being into seno when he found out seno loved him, that's fine but the I love you seno in the xxx scene made me sad, cuz no you don't love him you just there cuz seno loves You. FEELINGS DONT MAGICALLY HAPPEN
natuski loved hiro all his high-school even later when he used seno as a rebound.
I just find it so hard to believe that u love your rebounds cuz in the end you fell for them after using them as a substitute for years? Lol I hate it.
And Idk if it sounds insecure but imagine being used as a rebound for your lover's first love and then after u start dating he is still in contact with the first love, best friends at that. Idk man sounds so bad. Like maybe if he had moved on? I don't want seno to be with natsuki at all.
Now we are on seno, he is pathetic. He slept around to just sleep with natsuki?
I know people go to lengths for love but wow I can't with him. He is just so pitiful it makes me mad. Why can't he move on? Why couldn't he just forget him? Yeah his childhood seems to butchered up so I can see the reason why he is so obsessive about it oh god no way. As someone who is hopeless towards someone who will never like me or even look at me irl I so understood seno you know. It was like oh....wow? That's why I cried at the high-school chapters of seno because I felt it. But the ending just made me feel disgusted maybe cuz projecting maybe? But no way you would go after someone who treated u thay bad.
Even when natuski thought that seno was hiro he never once bothered to care about seno in the hospital he never once asked. But oh when he finds out that seno loved him, he is selfish. When seno finally had the chance to get over it, he could have, He would have gotten over natsuki you know, when he finally cut him off, it would have taken time be he would have. But natsuki decides no he needs to find answers which were so obvious. I hate natsuki I just do. He is unlikable. Men who can't seem to move on from their feelings without the help of someone else and hurting them? An unlikable character.