So, when I read this for the first time four years ago, I had just gotten diagnosed with ADHD, and it hadn’t really sunk in yet. So when I saw that Skyler also had ADHD, I just kinda ignored it beyond the obligatory thought of “oh same as me”. But I just re read the story, and it nearly destroyed me. Obviously it’s not the best representation. In fact, it’s kinda hurtful. But I think that’s why I was drawn to it? I saw a lot of myself in Skyler, and his relationship with his disability. In the past four years, I’ve been in a lot of therapy (something I hope both the main characters of this story do), and I realized that a lot of the sources of my trauma were because of my ADHD. So in the story, when Skyler’s disability was constantly referred to as him being “born sick”, I would break down in tears. Because that what I thought for so long. That I was sick, that there was something wrong with me, and that I deserved all the hate I got when I was younger. But that’s not true. It’s so not true. And I’m just heartbroken that to Skyler, all ADHD is to him is it’s part of the reason his mom hates him. I just wish that in this next part of his life, he learns to except it, and that ADHD isn’t just bad, there is also good. Anyways, sorry this was so long, I just need to ramble.
So, when I read this for the first time four years ago, I had just gotten diagnosed with ADHD, and it hadn’t really sunk in yet. So when I saw that Skyler also had ADHD, I just kinda ignored it beyond the obligatory thought of “oh same as me”.
But I just re read the story, and it nearly destroyed me. Obviously it’s not the best representation. In fact, it’s kinda hurtful. But I think that’s why I was drawn to it? I saw a lot of myself in Skyler, and his relationship with his disability. In the past four years, I’ve been in a lot of therapy (something I hope both the main characters of this story do), and I realized that a lot of the sources of my trauma were because of my ADHD. So in the story, when Skyler’s disability was constantly referred to as him being “born sick”, I would break down in tears. Because that what I thought for so long. That I was sick, that there was something wrong with me, and that I deserved all the hate I got when I was younger. But that’s not true. It’s so not true. And I’m just heartbroken that to Skyler, all ADHD is to him is it’s part of the reason his mom hates him. I just wish that in this next part of his life, he learns to except it, and that ADHD isn’t just bad, there is also good. Anyways, sorry this was so long, I just need to ramble.