i read this manga (i think its manga) recently but i just cant remember the name. i think ...

i read this manga (i think its manga) recently but i just cant remember the name. i think the seme got SA'd by the uke in the past when the uke was drunk and then the uke forgot about it. some years later, the seme either SA'd the uke back for revenge or betrayed the uke once he gained his trust. i cant remember well. the seme had light hair. it felt psychological.

please help if you know what im talking about! thank you