I read this ages ago and loved il but after rereading there's some parts I just couldn't s...

I read this ages ago and loved il but after rereading there's some parts I just couldn't stand for example I hated the fact the he lost his virginity to Alec while wasted while alec was only doing it to get a rise out of Ivan so idk but that really felt icky i felt bad for him that he was used like that is someone else rivalry for his first time i don't think ukes have to be pure little virgins but the fact he was and lost it to Alec in those circumstances made me sad like ik he liked Alec but he was drunk off his mind to the point he couldn't even remember so having sex with someone who's that drunk is horrible (rape your free to disagree) and Alex was fully aware of that fact and did it purposely and he was taken advantage of and i felt so bad for ivan aswell having to see the person you like like that and I hated seeing them have to threesome that they clearly didn't want but had no choice so late way after their relationship was established idk these things didn't bother me the first time reading but this time weirdly it actually really upset me idk why