but really this just felt gross from start to finish. there was never a point where i think they really liked each other, he just happened to pick her for sex (in reality, rape, but sure let's go along with pretending it's sex) and she just went a long with it? no love involved? no caring about her actual goals (like seriously he called them "excuses"????)? massive ick. really the "excuses" thing is so gross and at no point was this a fun smut thing it was just awkward and gross and uncomfortable to read.
but really this just felt gross from start to finish. there was never a point where i think they really liked each other, he just happened to pick her for sex (in reality, rape, but sure let's go along with pretending it's sex) and she just went a long with it? no love involved? no caring about her actual goals (like seriously he called them "excuses"????)? massive ick. really the "excuses" thing is so gross and at no point was this a fun smut thing it was just awkward and gross and uncomfortable to read.