Girl I feel you. I've also read years back but still can't bring myself to complete bj alex cause of the embarassment I get cause of Dg
augh i feel you there are a couple moments where i just get second hand embarrassment - mainly the desk scene, and the scene at the very beginning when DG asks if he’s Alex and asks him for sex i always just scroll past it during my rereads lol
me to like I move at the speed of light trying to scroll past those scenes as quick as humanly possible
not even gonna lie I read Bj Alex like 3 years ago and have re-read it a number of times and to this day have never fully read chapter 39, like when DG crawled his ass under that desk I quit and never went back. I have read every other chapter but I refuse to subject myself to the horror of that second hand embarrassment.