But also on that note, I feel like they could never have conventional “bdsm sex”, because despite having all the hallmarks of a d/s relationship, bdsm is built on a foundation of the dom receiving and responding to the sub’s needs. There’s a lot of communication involved and the scene can stop at any time. What Hayden and Brett have is not like that. They both know that once Hayden gets going, he will *never* stop. It’s why Hayden deliberately went against what everyone told him by spending his ruts alone, and why Brett schemed the entire thing just to instigate Hayden’s dick in his ass. I’ve mentioned that Hayden likes to make things more difficult for himself than they need to be, which is why Brett is a literal godsend for him. Because he doesn’t need to hold back like he would with any other sex partner. Brett fights back on the principle of his alpha nature, but he takes everything Hayden has to give and then some. So, it’s unconventional, but ultimately Brett’s needs do get met, on account of the fact that their sex is not sane, not safe, but somehow consensual.
Ohhh I love your comment!!! I really love the story and the ideas it explores because I've never read anything like it before. But I struggled to put into words why I find it so interesting. But then you were able to explain it so well!
Ohhh I love your comments!!! I really love the story and the ideas it explores because I've never read anything like it before. But I struggled to put into words why I find it so interesting. But then you were able to explain it so well!
Thank you for explaining this I love you
Thank you thank you thank you haha I was so confused why Brett almost dies everytime they bang makes sense now
Well written commentary.
A little spoiler:
You mention that once Hayden gets going he’ll never stop. In chapter 16 he mentions this and tells Brett he wants to have a safe word even if Brett doesn’t want it and he picks the word “honey” because he tells Brett that is a word he’d never use on him.
Then in chapter 21, Brett comes injured from a game and tells an out-of-it Hayden that he’s not feeling it, but Hayden is not listening, so after smacking him and trying to get away, he remembers the safe word and blurts it out and Hayden stops.
He doesn’t remember anything that happened, but his subconscious did and he stopped dead in his tracks as doing as Brett said “honey”.
My understanding of Korean is tenuous, but I do remember him stopping during the rut scene. Good for Hayden, though. I’ll amend that to “the consent develops in a very nebulous way” throughout their relationship. Brett seemed pretty surprised that he stopped at all, and then amused. (Hayden also seemed a little surprised that he stopped, too, despite pitching the safe word to begin with). Another thing is that Brett seems like he enjoys himself retroactively during the intense sex scenes. He mentions that Hayden “ripped him apart” that first time, but still speaks fondly of it. The guy just really feels best when he’s about to die during sex I suppose. I don’t remember all that well what he said after the rut scene from 20-21, but he was pretty chill. I’m glad he bounces back quick, even though during those chapters he was fighting for his life. Maybe I was wrong in one of my old comments and Brett is gonna get dickmatized after all lmfao.
I read it in Spanish, but I can’t say how good their Korean language skills are, so some of it may be incorrect.
Okay, so for anyone who’s wondering about the nosebleed, it’s because Hayden is releasing his alpha pheromones. Now, this wouldn’t be a problem if Brett was an omega, because they’re built to be receptive to those pheromones. But Brett is an alpha, an anomaly, anyway. He does NOT have the proper biology to accept the pheromones and his body/the alpha inside him is rejecting them, thus the nosebleed. This is a trend that continues to happen, where despite their coupling causing physical (and maybe psychological) damage to him, Brett is freak nasty and actually enjoys what it does to him. He wants Hayden to release his pheromones because it’s pleasurable to him, to be this big, strong alpha designed to breed and dominate—ending up dominated himself. I think that’s why the aspect of consent is so important and fascinating in this story, because the alpha in Brett is howling and fighting against Hayden’s brutality, but Brett himself is a ho and absolutely loves it. And then Hayden comes back to himself and is like “aw Fuck, I can’t believe you’ve done this”.