i think it's like survivors guilt
Pretty sure he’s still suicidal and still doing the wishlist.
I don’t understand what u meant by “is MC doing the wish checklist because he wants to kill himself” (my brain lags) r u asking if he’s doing the wishlist so that he can finally kill himself??? Or r u asking he’s doing the wishlist because he wants to die? Because if he wants to die he can just kill himself- (I love over thinking things when my brain doesn’t process it right away)
Anyway MC is most likely still suicidal but we haven’t seen him talking about how he was to die which is good. He’s doing the wishlist because it is the last wishes/will of his friends/comrades who has fallen (may they rest in peace) his plan is to kill himself after he finishes the wishlist.
The friends/comrades told MC their last will/wishes and asked him to do them so that MC will live for a long her time because since the dungeon (I think after MC’s friend died) he has been wishing to die.
He still want to kill himself but he said he will do it after completing the list
Yes! They noticed how he got suicidal and been depressed but unlike his friend he wasn't vocal about his feelings and they weren't in a position to lower his burden so kept relying on him.
Hence they placed their last wishes with MC to keep him from dying after it was over, they believed he was the most likely to survive.
The other 2 killed themselves from Mana exhausting as there were no potions back then and the blonde hunter just hurt herself beyond recovery and is basically mentally impaired.
He still plans to off himself after he finishes the will list and is barely surviving on the pills.
please refresh my memory, is MC doing the wish checklist because he wants to kill himself? is he still suicidal (i know he’s got ptsd and constantly taking meds but i forgot abt the suicidal stuff)