no, I didn't forget that. both semes are really something and disgusting (it's like choosing the best of the worst options ever) but at some point uke was acting out just because, making the worst decisions (he should've learned something at this point) and that's when I started disliking him. the secretary was right, at some point he kept believing everyone except the seme and for no reason either. if you tell me it's because seme raped him, then it makes no sense he would believe blonde seme who also tried to force himself on the uke several times over the ML and whom uke doesn't even like. las someone else said in the comments, the author is just bad at writing stories. bad shit happens just because, the uke makes nonsensical bad decisions just so worse things keep happening to him. you say it's pride but his pride trumps his self preservation several times in this story to the point he looks stupidly stubborn
So to sum it up
“I would’ve told u what happened but u ran away” “oh so its my fault, i was in so much pain seungeon” “its my fault hyung dw.” CHOTTO A FUCKING MINUTE .