Responses
For me, it was koyama. When you like your friend romatically, you don't fully hoping your realtionship to change. There is some part that hope it stays the same even if your love fails. Cuz yk, you value them as a friend *first* ;-;
Never have I ever related so much with a character before like hira-kun right here, I was like him when I had my first love, everything about them seemed so moving to me it was unexplainable, everything about them captivated me, even simply just staring far. It's been almost 2 years and I doubt I have loss any feelings for him. After we broke up, I dated this other dude who liked me but it was also similar to the MC's relationship with the college dude, I did like him but only as a friend so I had to end it. I still imagine if only we didn't broke things off and continued.