If u need to rant, then rant. But if u want to change ur situation, u shouldn't concern yourself with "why?", instead concentrate on what you need to get done to having a life ur happy with. You have to get moving. Remember though,one step at a time, every journey starts with one step, etc. I think u get what I mean. Change is hard so don't be too bummed if it takes you awhile to get where u want to be. Ganbatte!<Good luck!> Hope u get there soon! (=・ω・=)
If I could I would but I keep wasting so many opportunities, acting hastily without thinking beforehand, making the wrong decisions, not listening to people's advices and warnings, ranting about myself when I talk with my parents, looking at the negative side of everything, worrying about stupid things needlessly, starving myself whenever I feel depressed, victimising myself when it's all my fault blah blah blah ..yeah I am lacking something probably self confidence or a brain(⌒▽⌒)
It's okay to take baby steps though. Start with little things and gradually build them up. It will take some time but once you're used to it it'll become easier to change things in your life and make it better. Try to focus on the this that make you happy, even if it's just a good book or a good piece of chocolate pie. Try to go to another place when you have free time and just look around you and realise that even if you think life sucks now, there are a lot of beautiful things in the world and even if you hate 99% of it, it's okay to keep living and trying for that 1% in the hope that one day you'll like the world 2%.
Living in the middle east there is no way out specially if you're a woman.
Guess what my roommate has just gone mad I won't be able to sleep tonight hurrray and I have to wake up at 6:30 tomorrow R.I.P me
Why was I born in this country? Why am I always grumpy? Why am I still living with my abusive flat mate? Why do I have such a weak and easily manipulated personality? Why do I hate myself so much? Why do I regret every second of my life till now? why am I crying while typing this? Why am I still immature despite my age? Why do I keep making the same mistakes over and over again?! Why am I ranting about myself in the first place ヽ(`Д´)ﾉ?