Well yeah, but this rape scene setting is actually pretty cliche right? It could be found in countless rape-themed yaoi. But as you see he wasn't bond, gang-raped, or at weapon-point, and the fact that he jerked off thinking about it prolly means that he half-refused and half-curious at the same time. I bet this would happen again in near future cos that's how the authors made them communicate so don't feel too bad about it ^^
I know right!?!? I think that we also might feel uncomfortable because the story was like plot plot plot rape rape RAPE RAPE and it totally caught me off guard. Like chapter 4 and beyond felt like a totally different manga to what I was reading before. This is a weird sentence to say but I feel like the rape was nonsensical. Like, the motivations just seem absurd to me.
can I just say, I read a lot of rape yaoi and this is one of the only ones to make me actually feel uncomfortable for the uke bc he literally doesnt want it (i mean yeah his body does but like his heart isnt in it?? *yaoi logic you know what i mean*) and i know thats how a lot of them start but daaaamn this was just too far like he kept him for days when no one has conveyed their feelings?? its really different to other yaoi imo