I feel like mc reaction is just not it. Like he crying when the black dude 🍇 him but af...

He's so used to it he's not even questioning it anymore. That's what happens when the world is cruel to you.

I m certain he thinks this is the only way to survive he also thinks he has no right to mourn on his own misery while he lost most of his family and people he loved , along with he is impotent could be one of those psychological response that he doesn't find pleasure in any of these he got gang rp since he was minor probably thinks this is all he could do to survive