AHHH... SO FRUSTRATING

Ah.... This comment gonna be my long ass ranting. (Ps: i read till chapter 58)

I am so so fucking disappointed with the Female Lead. She is making me frustrated all over. Like where the fuck her courage comes when fighting demons but can't even say her opinion, what she's think or how she truly feel to Male Lead..... Fuck.... The proper Communication Problem..... with FL making it frustrating by not talking and saying her opinion.

1st, their Feelings
I get why ML being hesitant about confessing his feeling (he think himself Ugly monster), but what about FL? Why ain't she talking action or confess her feelings (which will ultimately solve the problem). Why being hesitant? Does she lack self-esteem? If so, why? I do not see any fucking reason for her to not say her true feeling and opinion. It ain't like ML hates her or doesn't treat her properly or stopping her to say her opinion or feelings.... also it doesn't look like she doesn't have right to do that, afterall everyone accept her as ML partner and treat her properly. So why? Why?
Is she waiting for ML to make the 1st move (confession and all) like your typical shoujo romance story........ Fuck, even the ML, who lack self-esteem for understandable reason trying his best to tell FL his feeling and here our FL getting her mind distracted on Divorce problem, only delaying it and not solving it. Ahhhhh, i Just don't know why she's doing that? Why she's not telling her feelings? It not like she gonna lose anything...... is she gaining something by not telling her feelings to ML.... is it? Fuck.

Also when People Insult ML and try to approach FL, she's just listening and not defending ML. Like i know she can't tell anyone even ML that He's not ugly but too handsome guy but not all the thing is about looks. She knows how kind ML is. She knows how caring and protective ML is. Although she fall for him hard because of the looks but even before that she was slowly falling for ML. Not everything is about looks, something it about what inside the person and how they treat you and she could say that as a defense to those who insult ML and how she gonna choose ML instead of them. She remember her past life and how the corruption andd politics work and she's using that well to control demons and fight them but she can't even use the common saying like "looks doesn't matter". She can use it to defend ML and not make ML look like bad guy, forcing girl to stay with her and instead could have boosted ML self-esteem.
And like if she's not defending ML so that no one could know how good he is and treat her nicely... then she's a manipulative bitch.

And the Divorce problem~
i get why ML planning to get divorce.....ML clearly told her and i can understand ML action because he think he's monster andd ugly and his wife doesn't deserve man like him and other stuff....., But what about FL? why is she not saying anything? If she doesn't want divorce she can say it right?? It's not like ML is not treating her good and like won't listen to her or will distance with her if she says her opinion or confess. What is her problem? What's preventing het from saying her opinion.
I know when it comes to feeling, people can get shy and lack courage but i ain't telling her to confess to ML..... i can wait for that. Its just if you don't want divorce you can say it, nah. It's your opinion and you got nothing to loose.

She says she won't let ML divorce her, but won't say her opinion or anything when ML brings divorce topic Instead do some hidden trick like burning the divorce paper or tearing it or hiding it..... which is not the solution at all and just dragging and delaying the problem and then she would say things like "why making all the decision about her or on her behalf" and then again do nothing. Like Seriously bitch, if you don't like him making decision on your behalf, fucking say it LOUD and CLEAR....., EVERYTHING.

She's (plus author) just fucking dragging the divorce problem and not solving it and ultimately and finally it is ML who did it..... Atleast someone's saying what they think or want.

And to make her impression on me even worst, after ML announced they won't divorced, people started asking her why she still staying with the monster and not getting divorce and if ML was confining her or forcing her to stay. She had chance to say things Clearly...... she really had.
She even thought of it in her mind to clear it but then what she said just fucking didn't make things clearly, instead gave people different meaning.
She could have said that it was her own decision staying there..... as for the reason there are plently, but then instead she said the crap about the demon pretending to be priestess and how she need to stay in the castle now to fight them.
Doesn't it sounds like she's saying, she's only with ML and that place to fight the demons.... which can also be misunderstood as she will leave when everything get over..... Like You Serious??
Those people are your pursuer, who want to see you get divorce and get married to them or their son but instead of giving straightforward response her word only made them back off for a short period, they even said they'll come back after the fight is over.....
Lol you see, She didn't fucking solved anything.... she just delayed it when she could have solved the problem and ended it.
She's really making me frustrate...... Ah, I fucking hate her. I wish i can transmitted into this novel just so i can bonk her head and Scream at her.

I know author trying to show us her cool side by making her take decision and some action on other matter but to me she look so fucking Annoying........ ah Fuck, my mind going messy.

I can't go on, not with MC frustrating me like this. Maybe I had good high expectation of her (i mean the rating is so high), i never though she would frustrate me this much..... I wanted to Completely read this as i did saw some clips of the ending but i just can't cross this hurdle right now.
Maybe I'll come back as i want to know the ending or May be i won't. Regardless, i need positive energy so i am of to read stories that can heal me and my exhaustion.