This reminds me...

This scene reminds me of my Dad, we haven't had a proper talk ever since I left home, my country. The other day, we finally did. I grew up not sewing him being sweet to us, he's the kindest person I've ever seen, but also the strictest and most egoistic. However, I have always believed I'm the way I am because of how he raised me. Strong and ambitious. I have my full respect to him.
Though his principle and mine conflicts. I believe in freedom and exploration, finding myself somewhere, never limiting my space. While he is about family staying together.
I am his oldest daughter so he was kinda over protective. I grew up never getting what I wanted but I never ever complained. Hoping that someday I'll get them all from working hard.
I am currently living the life I've always wanted and I am never been happy. It comes with a price. I had to leave my home country. And been away for 7 years now.
I didn't have bad blood with my family but every time they talk to me, they always remind me that it's always better to be with the family.
Part of me agrees, but most of me don't because I cannot see myself growing back home.
I love my family but it's not what I want for myself. I'm old enough to start my own family but I couldn't because I want to be free.


Never talked to my dad until early this month.
This scene reminds me of our conversation. Short but brief.

Still wants me home, I still can't. I have so much more to do.

He realized he can never changed my mind, and for the first time in my life, I heard my dad say "I just want you all to know, I love you so much"
Referring to me and my siblings.

I think, it took him so much to actually say that. Ego and all. But I know it's sincere.

Probably gonna visit them next year, after all this time.
He kinda understand my attitude now.
I am a daughter who cannot stay.