Liked seeing their emotions for the balcony scene low-key CAUSE they both have misunderstandings about each other despite the communication. And It all stems from how different they think whish is SOOOOO GOOF BTW
(did not expect to untangle abandonment issues and self-esteem issues in my femdom smut manga but here we are !)
RICHARD is a genius, so to say, ever since, but he has a problem with emotional capacity. he tends to be logical and analytical so he tends to intellectualize everything so HIS CAUSE-EFFECT analysis of courtney that serves his selfishness
(cause his motivations tend to be led and wired to his pleasure which is how he BOTH escapes to and emotionally regulates)
So in his mind it'll be okay cause Courtney can just beat him up and emotionally regulate herself THAT'S why his emphasis is always on I DON'T WANT TO HURT COURTNEY— an intense battle tbh of what he wants to say to get her angry but not hurt in his head
AND WHEN HE DOES WHOO— the fear of abandonmebt from his shennanigans pops out ! Cause SO MANY SO SO MANY OF HIS FAMILY MEMBRRS AND PEERS have given up and abandoned him cause he is (as he knows himself) very twisted
So Courtney as the person who he feels can most recognize him feeling actual hate and disgust for him gets him flaccid is so interesting and THAT sentence is insane NYWAY LOVE THEIR BRAI CCELLS THOU IT'S HURTING MY HEART
Liked seeing their emotions for the balcony scene low-key CAUSE they both have misunderstandings about each other despite the communication. And It all stems from how different they think whish is SOOOOO GOOF BTW
(did not expect to untangle abandonment issues and self-esteem issues in my femdom smut manga but here we are !)
RICHARD is a genius, so to say, ever since, but he has a problem with emotional capacity. he tends to be logical and analytical so he tends to intellectualize everything so HIS CAUSE-EFFECT analysis of courtney that serves his selfishness
(cause his motivations tend to be led and wired to his pleasure which is how he BOTH escapes to and emotionally regulates)
So in his mind it'll be okay cause Courtney can just beat him up and emotionally regulate herself THAT'S why his emphasis is always on I DON'T WANT TO HURT COURTNEY— an intense battle tbh of what he wants to say to get her angry but not hurt in his head
AND WHEN HE DOES WHOO— the fear of abandonmebt from his shennanigans pops out ! Cause SO MANY SO SO MANY OF HIS FAMILY MEMBRRS AND PEERS have given up and abandoned him cause he is (as he knows himself) very twisted
So Courtney as the person who he feels can most recognize him feeling actual hate and disgust for him gets him flaccid is so interesting and THAT sentence is insane NYWAY LOVE THEIR BRAI CCELLS THOU IT'S HURTING MY HEART