I swear it’s not as bad in the novel idk why but the manhwa makes it looks worse then it is. Yea he can say he hates him ( which he doesn’t he’s just saying that to cope that he isn’t with him rn ) but when they reunite that lowkey goes out the window and when that feeling comes back it’s directed to himself because he was oblivious to all the sacrifices the top did when they were teenagers.

it’s the concept of blaming the only person in this entire world who defended, loved, cherish, adored, looked out for you, gave you gifts, respects you, fight for you and literally worships the ground u walk on THAT IS FRYING ME!!!! Holy fuck the main character is insane!!!