tbh literally my exact thoughts, like i GET Jiwan but i get so pissed bc like all this doubting and doubting JUST TRY BRO.... like he really thought ghosting and making both of them miserable was the way to go???? and then I'm also conflicted bc I agree I wish Taeyang never showed up in his life again and found someone that actually had balls idk. "yk im a coward" IDGAF do something and do it scared.... my god my head hurt so bad. I wanted to punch Jiwan lmao.... like i feel bad for him and i Get It, I Really Do but bro atp your fuckups gotta be only yours to blame idk
EXACTLY (╯°Д °)╯╧╧
I understand Jiwan’s fears, and I’m genuinely glad he had a child because now he finally has the family he always needed. He has the chance to become a better father than the one he had. But I really wish Taeyang had never reappeared in his life again, because wow…
Taeyang had little to no dignity left. He was abandoned, and they didn’t even break up with him in person—just a note. He was completely heartbroken over someone who wasn’t ready for a relationship. On top of that, Taeyang kept making an effort to get another chance, even after Jiwan rejected him countless times.
I understand that Jiwan has trauma—I really do—but it isn’t fair for someone else to suffer because of wounds they didn’t cause. I empathize with Jiwan, but I truly believe they would have been better off apart. The whole relationship was just one person begging the other to stay, even after being dumped, ghosted for eight years, and then kept at a distance when they finally reunited. It was incredibly frustrating to read.
Taeyang really needed a lot more self-love. This isn’t something I would ever read again, and I didn’t even make it to the end.