If you didn't like it, that's fine. I will tell you that later, Lee Won also shoots Caesar and then has sex with him. The scene you're talking about - yes, it's brutal - is also when Lee Won figures out that Caesar doesn't know how to show emotion, including affection, without violence. Lee Won even says it. Please do not take this as me defending his actions. There is one scene I find more brutal than this - when they fight about Lee Won's past relationships - and I really don't like that one. My 1st time reading this (it was still coming out, which is probably why I missed it), I missed how much Caesar trembled from being nervous when talking with Lee Won. He's not a green flag (though I don't think Lee Won is one either - he's got some pretty twisted thoughts), by any means... but I still think they're a great pair.

I really tried to like it but its so hard to get past the rape like shooting then raping him while hes bleeding out and barely conscious???
Like I've read ones where the top kidnaps the bottom for a little while thats more forgivable than what happened here. Just left me feeling icky