YW may be thinking: “I waited my whole life for this… and now I don’t know if I’m brave enough to take it.”
I can’t see him going with TJ. But I also can’t see him moving forward with Jo, knowing that he and TJ still love each other. YW knows he can’t truly reciprocate Jo’s feelings. Jo will never experience the kind of love YW shared with TJ — that once-in-a-lifetime, soul-level bond that was built over twenty years.
And maybe that’s what life is sometimes. There are people we give the deepest parts of ourselves to… and after that, there’s nothing left in the same way. YW gave that part of himself to TJ. Even when he was with Jo, TJ never left his heart or his mind.
YW didn’t choose Jo out of love. He chose him out of resignation, guilt, and a sense of obligation — because Jo stayed when YW felt abandoned by the one he truly loved. And YW is too emotionally worn down, too afraid of being alone, to walk away from that on his own.
I don’t think YW will choose either of them. I think all three will walk away on their own paths — each of them losing something irreplaceable.
However, that could change if Jamie is still out there (I suspect he is. Surely the body the police found wasn't Jamie's). If he is alive, are any of them safe - TJ, YW or even Jo?
PS - chapter 94 - how deeply YW cares for TJ. Concerned with TJ's PTSD .
YW may be thinking: “I waited my whole life for this… and now I don’t know if I’m brave enough to take it.”
I can’t see him going with TJ. But I also can’t see him moving forward with Jo, knowing that he and TJ still love each other. YW knows he can’t truly reciprocate Jo’s feelings. Jo will never experience the kind of love YW shared with TJ — that once-in-a-lifetime, soul-level bond that was built over twenty years.
And maybe that’s what life is sometimes.
There are people we give the deepest parts of ourselves to… and after that, there’s nothing left in the same way. YW gave that part of himself to TJ. Even when he was with Jo, TJ never left his heart or his mind.
YW didn’t choose Jo out of love. He chose him out of resignation, guilt, and a sense of obligation — because Jo stayed when YW felt abandoned by the one he truly loved. And YW is too emotionally worn down, too afraid of being alone, to walk away from that on his own.
I don’t think YW will choose either of them. I think all three will walk away on their own paths — each of them losing something irreplaceable.
However, that could change if Jamie is still out there (I suspect he is. Surely the body the police found wasn't Jamie's). If he is alive, are any of them safe - TJ, YW or even Jo?
PS - chapter 94 - how deeply YW cares for TJ. Concerned with TJ's PTSD .