Reread

i js reread this again from the start, and the ptsd he had with his mother when he summoned raonhiljo's mother (back when both two of them ran away from him) is what he's describing in this chapter

anyways, rereading this raonhiljo really is kind af, i cant really see a time when roha's feelings for garon emerged when clearly he likes raonhiljo at the start