Sadly, I tried to get over it and ended up finishing the entire thing again. I also checked other sites and they have this same chapters where the smut scenes from the early chapters are nonexistent.
I am so confused, clearly in the early chapters you can see Kyungjoon with hickeys and there's a part of some early chapter where cain transported to hell with no clothes on bc he jumped Kyungjoon in the bathroom.
I def remember early smut scenes where kyungjoon is definitely resisting, but their first s*x scene actually shown when I reread this again, Kyungjoon already seemed used to it.
I was really looking forward to rereading those as part of my *reread routine* but now I am really not sure if I remember correctly as I can't find those scenes anywhere.

This is going to be my third time rereading this and I have the worst memory ever that I got confused...
So can anyone please help me out?
Is it only me or my mind is playing games on me? Because I remember reading so many sex scenes between kyungjoon and cain in just the early chapters alone. But now coming back to this, the first sex scene I read was the fucking r*pe wth?? I don't remember this scene being in the early chapters yet and how the hell do they have the first sex scene and not the two protagonist? Is it deleted or cut off in some way? Because the first time I read this it's still in it's early chapters then the 2nd time it's still ongoing but I read it until it got finished.
So can someone enlighten me if these chapters are the same or are there deleted sex scenes???
I'll appreciate anyone who can just put this mind of mine to rest ╥﹏╥