I feel you man! After 20 years of reading BL I've saw a lot, but I'm so sick and tired of all that overflowing SA content in BL series! I understand that this is fiction, but the point is that these topics mostly are not correctly addressed in series, swept under the rug, just added to give some angst/sex scenes, and in a result it gets normalized by many readers! And I can understand kinks, but the amount of such content is very disturbing, and even worse, in many series SA is sexualized or even showed as pleasurable for both parties!! Seriously, something is wrong with this world, there is barely any series without at least SA attempt, and authors use this trop also because people still buy it, such series are the most popular on platforms, as for many 'hot characters' and sex scenes are all they need, no matter the context, sex sells unfortunately! And now SA became somehow a 'typical BL trop' to the point where it's 'normal' that in BL series in any kind of genre we can expect SA at some point, people treat it as standard... and that's concerning even if this is 'just a fiction'
Originally, this review was never supposed to see the light of day since I'm pretty much used to these types of storylines to the point where I'm desensitized whenever I encounter SA or any sort of implications towards that subject but right now I truly wonder how the author even manages to live their daily life knowing they just wrote about something they can go to jail for if it was done in real life. And this goes to all the authors of some of these latest BL manwhas lately, like what the hell guys why are you ALL normalizing all sorts of SA in y'alls story it really disgusts me sometimes. Like I feel shameful being a reader sometimes when all the new stories are just composed of this trash shit where MC just suddenly feels ok that he got assaulted by the ML and YES, I will hold whatever shit happened in chapter 1-2 against Seojun TILL MY VERY LAST BREATHE because no matter what experience you had in the past with your shitty tutor, it doesn't give you the right to do the same thing to other people. The only people I actually like in this story is minwoo and joohyun's sister. Ok so in chapter 48 Joohyun almost got GOT by those trash men in the club and it irritated me at first that after that experience and crying all night, he just went up and had sloppy seconds with Seojun on the next chapter like whaa??? BRO I really do not like dictating how others should feel but WHAT HAPPENED THAT NIGHT WOULD BE TRAUMATIZING FOR ANYONE especially to someone like Joohyun who I assume just got into college, living his life with more freedom and autonomy but is irritatingly naive and "innocent" like omg 'there are no rice cake shops open at night?' TYPE OF STUPID, but I'll let it pass considering the circumstances and what happened in his childhood but still. How can you just crave physical intimacy after an experience like that when you know at the very least that what happened WAS NOT OKAY at all. And this bullshit about giving Jiho another chance because he could actually be a good guy is SHIT, in the coming chapters, Joohyun went "oh why didn't I think of calling Seojun if he's gonna be in the club!" then proceeding to saying he wanted it to be a surprise is just DUMBDUMBDUBMUBMBMBB it's genuinely pissing me off like bro ACT YOUR AGE! You don't want to be treated like a kid? Then stop behaving like one! I'm mad at Joohyun and Seojun they both dumb bro!! And yes, the pregnancy arc. This may be a hot take but getting pregnant right when you just started college? when you're still a freshman? Are we serious? BRO you just entered college, you know to yourself that you HAVE and I mean HAVE OTHER PRIORITIES you want to pursue in life, take for example that one restaurant you ate with Seojun, how you rambled that you and Minwoo can't afford eating but someday want to eat there. BRO JUST FROM THAT STATEMENT I KNOW YOU GOT DREAMS, YOU GOT DREAMS SO WHY ARE YOU SUDDENLY GOING 'hee hee Imma have my sunbae's baby' like ok Seojun is at fault too for not using protection but my broooo Joohyun, you're a baby to me also :(( I rooted for you, I wanted you to be happy. But HAVING a baby it can literally WAIT until you find more stability in life. Come on we are better than this I know the kid would probably not be ab*rted so fuck it, and I know this is just fiction but damn, this terrible writing of what these characters are gonna do next really gets you thinking that it could, in fact, get any dumber than this. Anyway, I'm not dropping this, I'll stick around till the end 'cause I'm a sucker for good art syle and the story hasn't reached the point where it's irreparable. But for now? I'm giving this a 3/10