we can get so caught up in our own pain that we don’t realize how much we’re hurting the people we love. psyka is so focused on how painful it is to watch yiho hurt that he honestly gets so much more focused on that rather than the pain yiho’s actually experiencing. eventually, after having done this for years upon years, he’s convinced himself that he has no other choice BUT to hurt yiho, all so that his and gyor’s relationship will finally be “approved” by blank ig??
i feel like mino just proves that there has always been another choice. psyka could love gyor even if he was a beta and just make blank suck it up, but being protected and raised by blank, especially after experiencing a war and struggling to survive, they must feel like the owe it to blank yk? and since most of what they want is to just be together, add the fact that they want blank’s approval or something, they probably feel like they have no choice.
as cats who aren’t betas (i forgot what they’re called), and especially with what they’re researching, they put so much importance on their second gender, using it as a tool, even as a weapon, that simply living life as a beta seems to be, like, bad???? (i’m trying so hard to phrase this well but this is all just so complex and my mind is all over the place with ideas.) which is why psyka keeps saying shit like “he needs the lab or else he’ll be a beta for the rest of his life,” emphasizing it so much as if it’s so terrible to be a beta. yeah, yiho wouldn’t be able to protect mino as well as he could in the past, but so what? why is that more important that yiho’s safety and stability? mino loves yiho, not for what yiho can offer him, but just for him, alone. and because of how much blank places importance on their secondary gender and how psyka—and yiho as well—was raised on that belief, it shocks them both to hear how mino would still love yiho even if he lived the rest of his life as a beta.
this is all just simply touching on WHY psyka must believe he has no choice despite there always being another choice, i haven’t even gotten to start talking about the complexity of psyka, gyor, and yiho’s relationship, especially the relationship between psyka and yiho and psyka’s feelings about what he’s doing to yiho and so much more. i’d have loved to make this more organized, but i’m honestly overwhelmed with ideas that the only way to actually write this all out properly is to sit down at my desk instead of sitting on this toilet :p
thanks to everyone who read my word vomit and have a good day
we can get so caught up in our own pain that we don’t realize how much we’re hurting the people we love. psyka is so focused on how painful it is to watch yiho hurt that he honestly gets so much more focused on that rather than the pain yiho’s actually experiencing. eventually, after having done this for years upon years, he’s convinced himself that he has no other choice BUT to hurt yiho, all so that his and gyor’s relationship will finally be “approved” by blank ig??
i feel like mino just proves that there has always been another choice. psyka could love gyor even if he was a beta and just make blank suck it up, but being protected and raised by blank, especially after experiencing a war and struggling to survive, they must feel like the owe it to blank yk? and since most of what they want is to just be together, add the fact that they want blank’s approval or something, they probably feel like they have no choice.
as cats who aren’t betas (i forgot what they’re called), and especially with what they’re researching, they put so much importance on their second gender, using it as a tool, even as a weapon, that simply living life as a beta seems to be, like, bad???? (i’m trying so hard to phrase this well but this is all just so complex and my mind is all over the place with ideas.) which is why psyka keeps saying shit like “he needs the lab or else he’ll be a beta for the rest of his life,” emphasizing it so much as if it’s so terrible to be a beta. yeah, yiho wouldn’t be able to protect mino as well as he could in the past, but so what? why is that more important that yiho’s safety and stability? mino loves yiho, not for what yiho can offer him, but just for him, alone. and because of how much blank places importance on their secondary gender and how psyka—and yiho as well—was raised on that belief, it shocks them both to hear how mino would still love yiho even if he lived the rest of his life as a beta.
this is all just simply touching on WHY psyka must believe he has no choice despite there always being another choice, i haven’t even gotten to start talking about the complexity of psyka, gyor, and yiho’s relationship, especially the relationship between psyka and yiho and psyka’s feelings about what he’s doing to yiho and so much more. i’d have loved to make this more organized, but i’m honestly overwhelmed with ideas that the only way to actually write this all out properly is to sit down at my desk instead of sitting on this toilet :p
thanks to everyone who read my word vomit and have a good day