I don't how to feel about this, I have found feelings about this and I'm confused how to feel and I'm feeling wyq too much things about this. This is... IDK HOW TO FEEL LOL???? Like, they're both freaks, but ml is extremely sadist, but I think he kinda wants to know how to love or how properly show affection/ aka a gentler side of himself? Due to the part he asks himself if there's a gentle side for a beast like him, so I understand he, in the bottom of his inner self, wants to understand how to love or how to be gentle? I mean, his parents were no great example, it seems he hasn't had another partners besides sexual/bdsm partners, and never really had a figure to teach him how to be gentle/loved, just agressive and unhealthy. Not justifying, just trying to look deeply onto this because it's the first maneja where both love protagonists are extremely unhealthy and toxic. The Mc is extremely perverted, unhealthy about habits, obsessive, and just like ml he doesn't really understand what love is or how is it composed/made, he understands he "loves" G.O, but at the same does it also in an unhealthy way, expecting his partner to be something he isn't and putting them both in a difficult situation, and G.O is nothing better, acting like his father the second he feels jealous or not enough for Minwoo. NOT JUSTIFYING, this is very dark and hard to swallow most of the time, just I'm trying to analyze both characters; cause even someone like Minwoo could be capable of doing something to G.O if he was like he fantasized him to be; aka sa when G.O could be asleep or recording them in private situations, stalkers really can be extreme, so what I'm saying is that BOTH characters are toxic and unhealthy, and until they don't really heal themselves first, over trauma or understanding the other, BECAUSE ITS OBVIOUS G.O LOVES MINWOO TOO but he's too internalized, unhealthy and his toxic upbringing never really taught him how to be, and it seems he's rather the no social type, then it really affected how he feels around Minwoo, to the point he could kill him by his jealousy, or insecurity, because for some reason I smell insecurity coming from him? It's like he needs to feel like he's the one and only for his partner, and if they do something he perceives as his partner seeing something better/aka people who could give Minwoo better "love" or his body reacting to another males, it's an automated reaction of not being that good that even with another body Minwoo reacts, although it's a physical reaction, not a mental matter, and the fact that happened JUST after Minwoo said that he loved him... Yeah, G.O also loved him is obvious. I think it's very unhealthy and toxic, not usually what I enjoy, BUT I hope the author really knows how to handle this and doesn't end that corny, because sorry but they both fit each other quite a lot, negatively yes, but they both lack understanding of human beings, so maybe they'll learn from each other. I agree that it could end like this too, lol ╮(￣▽￣)╭
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I don't how to feel about this, I have found feelings about this and I'm confused how to feel and I'm feeling wyq too much things about this. This is... IDK HOW TO FEEL LOL???? Like, they're both freaks, but ml is extremely sadist, but I think he kinda wants to know how to love or how properly show affection/ aka a gentler side of himself? Due to the part he asks himself if there's a gentle side for a beast like him, so I understand he, in the bottom of his inner self, wants to understand how to love or how to be gentle? I mean, his parents were no great example, it seems he hasn't had another partners besides sexual/bdsm partners, and never really had a figure to teach him how to be gentle/loved, just agressive and unhealthy. Not justifying, just trying to look deeply onto this because it's the first maneja where both love protagonists are extremely unhealthy and toxic. The Mc is extremely perverted, unhealthy about habits, obsessive, and just like ml he doesn't really understand what love is or how is it composed/made, he understands he "loves" G.O, but at the same does it also in an unhealthy way, expecting his partner to be something he isn't and putting them both in a difficult situation, and G.O is nothing better, acting like his father the second he feels jealous or not enough for Minwoo. NOT JUSTIFYING, this is very dark and hard to swallow most of the time, just I'm trying to analyze both characters; cause even someone like Minwoo could be capable of doing something to G.O if he was like he fantasized him to be; aka sa when G.O could be asleep or recording them in private situations, stalkers really can be extreme, so what I'm saying is that BOTH characters are toxic and unhealthy, and until they don't really heal themselves first, over trauma or understanding the other, BECAUSE ITS OBVIOUS G.O LOVES MINWOO TOO but he's too internalized, unhealthy and his toxic upbringing never really taught him how to be, and it seems he's rather the no social type, then it really affected how he feels around Minwoo, to the point he could kill him by his jealousy, or insecurity, because for some reason I smell insecurity coming from him? It's like he needs to feel like he's the one and only for his partner, and if they do something he perceives as his partner seeing something better/aka people who could give Minwoo better "love" or his body reacting to another males, it's an automated reaction of not being that good that even with another body Minwoo reacts, although it's a physical reaction, not a mental matter, and the fact that happened JUST after Minwoo said that he loved him... Yeah, G.O also loved him is obvious. I think it's very unhealthy and toxic, not usually what I enjoy, BUT I hope the author really knows how to handle this and doesn't end that corny, because sorry but they both fit each other quite a lot, negatively yes, but they both lack understanding of human beings, so maybe they'll learn from each other. I agree that it could end like this too, lol ╮(￣▽￣)╭