Don’t get why people don’t get it lol

I won’t say anything about the future or the raws as I don’t have access to either, but I don’t understand why someone would struggle to understand Kwon Taeshin or the plot overall. Kwon Taeshins affection and near-resentment makes a lot more sense if you tie it to him being terrified of attachments, probably due to his family situation. (Note him sleeping around a lot, never forming connections and refusing to emotionally invest himself in anyone) he has a lot of immature and strong emotions he doesn’t know how to deal with (plus he keeps a cool facade and his attachment disorder ties into it) so all his feeling compound into an overwhelming mass that slides into negativity. He hates the main character because he likes him and is terrified of him holding that power over him, alongside his ability to leave at any time. Some people who have these attachment disorders can’t bear looking at the full brunt of their emotions, so they trick themselves into thinking that they’re superior and smarter than everyone else in their life because they have the ability to be abandoned and not feel anything, since they “saw it coming” and such. Its kind of sad like watching a kid brag about how they knew everything in their life would fall apart and they were smart and strong enough to know something out of their control could happen and now they’re better than the average person because they were able to move on from something another person couldn’t. Taeshin loves the main character, and that sometimes translates to him hating him in equal measure because he’s had an impact on his life and things won’t be the same “once he leaves.” Even his assertion that he’d hate him to death is actually a confession that if the MC were to leave him, he’d still cling onto their relationship and thats the way he’d force it to stay alive- after all love and hatred are two emotions borne of passion and apathy is the true death of relationships. Taeshins hatred and need to ruin the MC is really the way he keeps himself safe from the terror of being abandoned first, and the “need to ruin” is his revenge and punishment for daring to force an attachment that could humiliate Taeshin once he leaves. Caring more is terrifying to Taeshin, who I suspect grew up surrounded by utter apathy that punished his emotions. The “desire to ruin” is sort of like a wounded animal bristling its fur and lashing out at someone getting close to them, its a flight or fight response. Taeshin freaked out after 1 day of not being contacted because that affirmed to him just how easy he would be to remove from someones life. Taeshins desperate want to be either a husband or a sibling to the MC is him wanting to be impossible to be abandoned or to have no strong feelings for, but he doesn’t trust either of those roles in the mcs life because the both of them grew up in a shaky home where they were abandoned. Taeshin feels so strongly that he, in a way, wants to bury himself in the main characters body so he’s be impossible to throw away or hold no regard for. Anyways thats about all i thought the story built this up well, Taeshins obsession with “superiority” (ruining) in a way is like when you make friends with someone who smugly says they actually aren’t that attached to you and they can throw you away vaguely, and when you actually peel a layer away that person will confess to in a roundabout way that this is how they protect themselves from caring too much for another person and being vulnerable to their affection.