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gaygayhomosexualgay March 1, 2026 7:43 am

got hooked just from the synopsis. been binging other short bl for the heck of it last couple days but this blows them all out of the water so far; renai kanjouron is a fresh balance of beautiful story and art.

was shocked to see other readers didn't feel as emotionally connected as i did but it makes sense considering my personal background (i digress) but to someone who isn't all too familiar with psychology terms and, to some extent, philosophy, i can see why this story may seem a tad convoluted since jargon's shoved into your face from the start.

in spite of that, the writing, characterization, pacing are all BRILLIANT to me. if you can keep up, things just fall into place; why characters are the way they are, subtleties that further humanize them. it's so rare for me to feel so in touch with the cast within such a short manga.

to be fair, there wasn't a 'villain' in this story which made it equally easy and hard in execution; yuka and asaba (our only supporting characters) are fleshed out enough with wholesome dynamics to both ryouma and nodoka. at the same time, it's a man vs self conflict for both mcs themselves, making things all the more complicated.

i don't claim to be a professional but ryouma clearly exhibits black and white thinking + people pleasing tendencies (i want to say he's bpd but i may be biased) though he doesn't explicitly state that he acts and speaks primarily to elicit positive reactions from both clients and otherwise, including nodoka at the start. things like this, you notice when you read between the lines albeit made a tad harder due to some purple prose (use of metaphors, quotes from real psychologists) but i do believe certain red flags can be garnered anyway through reading. of course, that isn't to say ryouma's personality is fake or curated to please, but that's what makes his relationship with nodoka special, both ways–

from the beginning, ryouma and nodoka understand each other on a higher level than their peers and other people in their life do. this is a shock to both of them: nodoka who's made it a point to withhold his emotions from showing as well as (perhaps subconsciously) refusing to look into his own emotions, and ryouma of whom is used to doing the seeing and observing than to be observed. likewise, they're unable to come to terms with the need to overcome their 'flaws (for lack of better term)' and when they do, the struggle is a lot. still, it's precisely because they're able to understand each other better than others that they're patient, seeing through their blunders and accepting them as part of themselves, as part of the person they love.

their growth was so neatly written, the progression so natural due in part to the mangaka's script writing, further enhanced by their own understanding of psychology and the way people work.

this is getting too long i honestly could yap more but this is way out of hand already i'll end it here just know that this is a work that will stay with me and ratiorine is everywhere for those with the eyes to see

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