Re-reading this (my 3rd time). Currently in chapter 58, and what i just realised and slowly processing, is HOW Chang expresses his “love” to Yeongwoon—the complete opposite of love. He lowers Yeongwoon’s self esteem, pushes him to the edge, backs him off to a corner—all kind of form of abuse shown in hatred. Thinking he despised him for so long, when reality he loves him so, so much. Chang is written so well that people hate him so much. There are alot of BL(s) where the uke gets into trouble, top who is a ceo saves him and slowly falls in love, I thought to myself “if Chang worded what he said to Yeongwoon on paying back his debts better, maybe he could have a chance, if he never said those disgusting and vulgar words to Yeongwoon on paying back his debt.” Now he desprately wants Yeongwoon’s attention—why? Because he could easily get it before via hurting Yeongwoon’s pride, abusing him verbally. The concept of loathing him so much because he burries the thought of how much he loves him shows how thoroughly JAXX writes their characters. I love he concept of how Yeongwoon slowly accepting he did what he had to do to survive, Creed slowly wanting pure love instead of an enthusiastic one, and how Chang realise all the years of tormenting Yeongwoon will never make him stay with him forever, how he potrays and he scares him as a form of how he shows “love”.
Also i know i sound like a total maniac bcs of this, but i love reading desperate, well written things like this (any manga/manhwa/manhua that doesnt have alot of smut but when it does its beautiful/lustful smut and is more story/plot focused) such as painter behind the curtains, solo for two, smyrna and capri, dark heaven, do you still like me? Etc etcc.
If yall have any recommendations that are similar to what i describe please notify me:w. Beyond the clouds is in my reading list (but i heard there’s no smut), same goes to Reunion. So these are my last reads—i prefer having some smut along the way though, thank you(づ￣ ³￣)づ
Re-reading this (my 3rd time). Currently in chapter 58, and what i just realised and slowly processing, is HOW Chang expresses his “love” to Yeongwoon—the complete opposite of love. He lowers Yeongwoon’s self esteem, pushes him to the edge, backs him off to a corner—all kind of form of abuse shown in hatred. Thinking he despised him for so long, when reality he loves him so, so much. Chang is written so well that people hate him so much. There are alot of BL(s) where the uke gets into trouble, top who is a ceo saves him and slowly falls in love, I thought to myself “if Chang worded what he said to Yeongwoon on paying back his debts better, maybe he could have a chance, if he never said those disgusting and vulgar words to Yeongwoon on paying back his debt.” Now he desprately wants Yeongwoon’s attention—why? Because he could easily get it before via hurting Yeongwoon’s pride, abusing him verbally. The concept of loathing him so much because he burries the thought of how much he loves him shows how thoroughly JAXX writes their characters. I love he concept of how Yeongwoon slowly accepting he did what he had to do to survive, Creed slowly wanting pure love instead of an enthusiastic one, and how Chang realise all the years of tormenting Yeongwoon will never make him stay with him forever, how he potrays and he scares him as a form of how he shows “love”.
Also i know i sound like a total maniac bcs of this, but i love reading desperate, well written things like this (any manga/manhwa/manhua that doesnt have alot of smut but when it does its beautiful/lustful smut and is more story/plot focused) such as painter behind the curtains, solo for two, smyrna and capri, dark heaven, do you still like me? Etc etcc.
If yall have any recommendations that are similar to what i describe please notify me:w. Beyond the clouds is in my reading list (but i heard there’s no smut), same goes to Reunion. So these are my last reads—i prefer having some smut along the way though, thank you(づ￣ ³￣)づ