(this is a very personal, very long comment about my feelings on unsleep, so dont mind me spilling my guts here, dont read if u dont care i promise its really not necessary or important LOL)
im only half joking of the topic title, but like i just want to say some words of appreciation for this manhwa. No other has given me the amount of joy and comfort that this one has. My standards(for yaoi) have risen SO high from reading this over and over again and not getting sick of it. I think its just how personal this manhwa feels to me. Ive had insomnia since my childhood, on and off, just as chaejun has. My memories are as good as his (some distant and some known from being told about them) I will never know what specific trauma caused it to stay so prevalent in my life, theres too many incidents(yay c-ptsd) but the comfort this story gives me is so immense i cant even lie, i am obsessed. (im also extremely autistic about yaoi as it is so that doesnt help) its not only chaejun but seung hyeons anxieties and background are so unfortunately similar to mine that i feel connected not just to one of them. but both. I was the child who was emotionally neglected and my older sister was the older sibling who was forced to take care of me and our younger brother as a kid herself. My siblings grew to be so successful and strong and i always felt left behind because of my mental disabilities and health declining so badly. Seeing the panels of seung hyeon watching everyone run ahead broke me. Its like looking in a mirror, or finally being seen, hes so special to me as well as chaejun. Learning to never take the love from those who really care about you for granted was NOT on my 2026 bingo. Seeing them make space for eachother in their lives despite their traumas and miscommunications really healed something in me that i didnt think was possible, reminded me that i dont need to be 100% fine to be given the love and space that i deserve. I know im looking too deep into it but thats just what this means to me, its such a lovely story that keeps on getting better and better every chapter and has not left my brain for MONTHS.
Some spoilers for untranslated chapters ahead:
Weirdly enough, the week where seung hyeon and his older brother had that nice conversation and finally talked about their feelings of the past i had the exact same thing happen between me and my sister...most dramatic shit ever (we were arguing and crying outside the house in the rain what the fuck, we are ok tho) but it was a conversation i had been avoiding having with her for so long. i shared the same sentiment that seung hyeon had towards his brother bc of past grievances between me and my sis. (she caused me to stay in the closet about being trans for years and its still deeply painful to me, altho its been years since then and she accepts me now) seeing as it was getting to the point that those two needed to talk, it started to dwell in my brain that i hadnt been talking to my sister lately about how ive been feeling (ive been deeply depressed about being left behind) and it finally happened on the same week they did it too. Weird coincidence. I carry around a little photocard holder of chaejun and seung hyeon in my pocket sometimes as a comfort item and i was fiddling with it the entire conversation, it came to my mind what i had just read a few days before and it made me laugh so much that i told my sister about the whole ordeal. GOD DAMN IT UNSLEEP. I dont dont know if fate really exists but im so glad i happened upon this silly little story and that my best days of the week are the days i get to see their stupid lil faces give eachother the love i wish to give myself(and hopefully my long distance gf in the future too)
Yesterday I got my first prescription for testosterone sent to be approved by the pharmacy, and during the dr appointment i was google translating the raws of the new chapter on my phone like a total goof. It was an incredible day to say the least. I wish i could tell the author about how much comfort this manhwa brings me but alas we are separated by a large barrier. I love this manhwa so much its actually inspiring me to do more artwork and start a project. I want to make an animatic for it to really show my appreciation. I will probably use the song insomnia by eve (kind of extremely relatable and honestly fits it SO well) but ill see if the motivation truly hits.
Anyway to go back to the topic title, Yes its 2am and i cant sleep right now, and its been like this for a long time but atleast i can reread unsleep in the meantime and get sleepy enough to pass out...peace out internet strangers on this random nonlegal manga site. I hope you all live long, loving, plentiful lives with those you love♡
(this is a very personal, very long comment about my feelings on unsleep, so dont mind me spilling my guts here, dont read if u dont care i promise its really not necessary or important LOL)
im only half joking of the topic title, but like i just want to say some words of appreciation for this manhwa. No other has given me the amount of joy and comfort that this one has. My standards(for yaoi) have risen SO high from reading this over and over again and not getting sick of it. I think its just how personal this manhwa feels to me. Ive had insomnia since my childhood, on and off, just as chaejun has. My memories are as good as his (some distant and some known from being told about them) I will never know what specific trauma caused it to stay so prevalent in my life, theres too many incidents(yay c-ptsd) but the comfort this story gives me is so immense i cant even lie, i am obsessed. (im also extremely autistic about yaoi as it is so that doesnt help) its not only chaejun but seung hyeons anxieties and background are so unfortunately similar to mine that i feel connected not just to one of them. but both. I was the child who was emotionally neglected and my older sister was the older sibling who was forced to take care of me and our younger brother as a kid herself. My siblings grew to be so successful and strong and i always felt left behind because of my mental disabilities and health declining so badly. Seeing the panels of seung hyeon watching everyone run ahead broke me. Its like looking in a mirror, or finally being seen, hes so special to me as well as chaejun. Learning to never take the love from those who really care about you for granted was NOT on my 2026 bingo. Seeing them make space for eachother in their lives despite their traumas and miscommunications really healed something in me that i didnt think was possible, reminded me that i dont need to be 100% fine to be given the love and space that i deserve. I know im looking too deep into it but thats just what this means to me, its such a lovely story that keeps on getting better and better every chapter and has not left my brain for MONTHS.
Some spoilers for untranslated chapters ahead:
Weirdly enough, the week where seung hyeon and his older brother had that nice conversation and finally talked about their feelings of the past i had the exact same thing happen between me and my sister...most dramatic shit ever (we were arguing and crying outside the house in the rain what the fuck, we are ok tho) but it was a conversation i had been avoiding having with her for so long. i shared the same sentiment that seung hyeon had towards his brother bc of past grievances between me and my sis. (she caused me to stay in the closet about being trans for years and its still deeply painful to me, altho its been years since then and she accepts me now) seeing as it was getting to the point that those two needed to talk, it started to dwell in my brain that i hadnt been talking to my sister lately about how ive been feeling (ive been deeply depressed about being left behind) and it finally happened on the same week they did it too. Weird coincidence. I carry around a little photocard holder of chaejun and seung hyeon in my pocket sometimes as a comfort item and i was fiddling with it the entire conversation, it came to my mind what i had just read a few days before and it made me laugh so much that i told my sister about the whole ordeal. GOD DAMN IT UNSLEEP. I dont dont know if fate really exists but im so glad i happened upon this silly little story and that my best days of the week are the days i get to see their stupid lil faces give eachother the love i wish to give myself(and hopefully my long distance gf in the future too)
Yesterday I got my first prescription for testosterone sent to be approved by the pharmacy, and during the dr appointment i was google translating the raws of the new chapter on my phone like a total goof. It was an incredible day to say the least. I wish i could tell the author about how much comfort this manhwa brings me but alas we are separated by a large barrier. I love this manhwa so much its actually inspiring me to do more artwork and start a project. I want to make an animatic for it to really show my appreciation. I will probably use the song insomnia by eve (kind of extremely relatable and honestly fits it SO well) but ill see if the motivation truly hits.
Anyway to go back to the topic title, Yes its 2am and i cant sleep right now, and its been like this for a long time but atleast i can reread unsleep in the meantime and get sleepy enough to pass out...peace out internet strangers on this random nonlegal manga site. I hope you all live long, loving, plentiful lives with those you love♡