You know, we know, but he doesn't know! The last time he saw him Shuraka was a frail child, then they parted for 12 years and that's not a small period, he literally doesn't know the adult Shuraka... He was cast for twelve years without knowing the reason, had to live while people shaming him, then suddenly Shuraka comes back out of nowhere and takes him back without even explaining why he did that, he knows he's a man so means there won't be an heir, then he stopped touching him, doesn't come see him, doesn't share anything with him and THEN sees a sea of beautiful concubines.... Tei is trying to find reason among confusion, I mean he wanted to find something to keep his mind intact and a goal for his life, especially someone who only knew all his life fighting... It's not a momentary pressure, it was built on many pillars... Sorry I talked a lot
Tei knows what kind of environment Shuraka was in and he’s heard bits and pieces from other characters too. My point is he’s stressing too much about what Shuraka thinks when he could just ask him Plus he still sees him as a child, despite all evidence suggesting otherwise. I do understand him wanting to find his feet amongst uncertainty though I don’t begrudge him that. And don’t worry about talking a lot! I’ve been wanting to talk about these characters. I just want Tei to stop suffering in silence that silly man!
He’s making this way harder than it needs to be. I understand his concern about Shuraka and his obsession with him could be due to some misguided attachment from when he was a child however he’s not taking into account that he’s quite literally had to survive in a palace that was out to kill him. Shuraka isn’t as naive as he thinks.
But also this could be resolved if he simply asked