This is unfair for me to say but what the actual fuck I hate both Ian and TJ, but I gotta understand that they both went through a lot of shit together and the only ones who could truly understand each other, but my brain is telling me that Jo was the better choice. In my mind, Ian really wanted to leave his past life of violence and live a peaceful life, meaning he would leave TJ as he is part of his past and didn't want to leave his life as a gangster (at the time). And Jo would be the start of his new normal life. I was hoping that Jo would be end game because he truly did love and yearned for Ian and he was a good guy, but I’ve realized after reading this chapter that isn’t realistic. Jo could never truly understand Ian like TJ and Ian kinda having that guilty conscience of him not “deserving” someone like Jo. I’m still frustrated as I really don’t like TJ at all and, in my head, Ian making the “wrong” choice. I’ll get over it but damn that shit made me mad
This is unfair for me to say but what the actual fuck I hate both Ian and TJ, but I gotta understand that they both went through a lot of shit together and the only ones who could truly understand each other, but my brain is telling me that Jo was the better choice. In my mind, Ian really wanted to leave his past life of violence and live a peaceful life, meaning he would leave TJ as he is part of his past and didn't want to leave his life as a gangster (at the time). And Jo would be the start of his new normal life. I was hoping that Jo would be end game because he truly did love and yearned for Ian and he was a good guy, but I’ve realized after reading this chapter that isn’t realistic. Jo could never truly understand Ian like TJ and Ian kinda having that guilty conscience of him not “deserving” someone like Jo. I’m still frustrated as I really don’t like TJ at all and, in my head, Ian making the “wrong” choice. I’ll get over it but damn that shit made me mad