Am I the only one who doesn't feel bad for the male lead? Am I the only one who's so confused of this relationship dynamic. Am I the only one who thinks the mc could literally run away if he really wanted to? Is this some kind of stockholm syndrome? Like a part of me understand why he's like this , because at one point in my life , I was also like this.... For as long as I can remember , I have never truly cared about myself and I always long for other people's affection or other people's well being, for as long as I can remember. One thing about the mc that I hate is that he reminds me of myself. I think he don't understand or truly know how to love himself like me. But one thing we don't have in common is that I found a way out because my mortal compass is not that broken. It's broken, don't get me wrong.It's definitely broken , but it's not as broken as his. Have anybody ever experienced this before? Not truly knowing how to love yourself other than others? It make me so mad because he reminds me so much of myself. I remember my first boyfriend. We had such a good relationship at the beginning. We had God, he was teaching me about God. I always loved God, but like 3 months later, he started doing small things like hating me or shoving me or tripping me. I would get a weird feeling, but because I was so obsessed with him, I couldn't admit to myself what our relationship truly was. I was wearing those rose shade glasses because I wanted to, everyone around me though did not like that s***. When I say I found a way out for myself is because I actually have people around me who cares about me. But for some reason , I still hold on to the people who treats me like trash , I don't know if it's because it's the the amount of attention or if it's because of the amount of physical stimulation , I feel. I'm not gonna lie.My emotions hurt way more than physical pain.It's like sometimes I don't feel it if I get hurt. I don't feel that s***I just say , ow. Because it's natural to say.
Am I the only one who doesn't feel bad for the male lead? Am I the only one who's so confused of this relationship dynamic. Am I the only one who thinks the mc could literally run away if he really wanted to? Is this some kind of stockholm syndrome? Like a part of me understand why he's like this , because at one point in my life , I was also like this.... For as long as I can remember , I have never truly cared about myself and I always long for other people's affection or other people's well being, for as long as I can remember. One thing about the mc that I hate is that he reminds me of myself. I think he don't understand or truly know how to love himself like me. But one thing we don't have in common is that I found a way out because my mortal compass is not that broken. It's broken, don't get me wrong.It's definitely broken , but it's not as broken as his. Have anybody ever experienced this before? Not truly knowing how to love yourself other than others? It make me so mad because he reminds me so much of myself. I remember my first boyfriend. We had such a good relationship at the beginning. We had God, he was teaching me about God. I always loved God, but like 3 months later, he started doing small things like hating me or shoving me or tripping me. I would get a weird feeling, but because I was so obsessed with him, I couldn't admit to myself what our relationship truly was. I was wearing those rose shade glasses because I wanted to, everyone around me though did not like that s***. When I say I found a way out for myself is because I actually have people around me who cares about me. But for some reason , I still hold on to the people who treats me like trash , I don't know if it's because it's the the amount of attention or if it's because of the amount of physical stimulation , I feel. I'm not gonna lie.My emotions hurt way more than physical pain.It's like sometimes I don't feel it if I get hurt. I don't feel that s***I just say , ow. Because it's natural to say.