Omfg...

Omg what the hell happens, you're scaring me.

It's already kinda of fucked up, now Idk if I should continue reading this or not, do you mind spoiling it a bit? :')

Holy shit nevermind, just read your previous comment... lowkey debating if I should drop this.

ISN'T IT HORRIFYING?? I was absolutely NOT thinking it would go that way at all?!? Like I can tolerate toxic but THAT SHIT, I don't know WTAF that shit is.... I need to be cleansed after that. ( ╥ ◡╥)

WARNING Spoilers ahead and emotional damage included free of charge.












So Meari finally finds her way to Sayoko’s house. Cute, right? Maybe some tense drama, maybe some longing glances. NOPE. This chapter is the literary fucking equivalent of getting hit in the face with a folding chair made of trauma.

Sayoko’s husband suddenly comes home, so she shoves Meari into a closet and locks it. Already a bad start. Things go from bad to OMG I NEED JESUS TO TAKE MY WHOLE CAR when the husband storms in, grabs Sayoko, throws her onto the bed, and forces himself on her, face fking her.

IN FULL MOTHERFUCKING 8K VIEW of poor Meari, who is losing her ever living mind. She keeps telling herself to look away but she can’t. She’s frozen there, watching this nightmare unfold while Sayoko dissociates so hard she basically ejects her soul from the premises. After the deed is done, Sayoko's head flops to the side towards the closet and she holds her finger up to her mouth and goes Shh CAUSE SHE KNOWS THAT POOR GIRL IS WATCHING. There’s even a memory about how someone once said the trick is to mentally check out so it ends faster. Sayoko’s eyes go empty, just black pupils, and the implication hits Meari like a freight train.

Meanwhile Meari is spiraling so badly she realizes she drank too much water earlier and is about to lose control of her bladder. Because apparently the chapter decided psychological devastation wasn’t quite enough yet. So Meari watches in horror as the husband pulls Sayoko's panties down and begins to RPE SAYOKO and pisses herself.

While she’s having a fucking melt down in the closet, she remembers another conversation from dinner a long time ago where Sayoko’s husband casually asked Meari if she’d like to be his lover because his wife was “boring.”

As the pee leaks from under the closet door, Meari’s brain officially blue-screens and she is just fucking GONE. Eventually it ends, Sayoko opens the closet… and tries to comfort her like NOTHING FUCKING HAPPENED. Her entire mood is like back to before she was taken advantage of in full view of her secret lover who lost her fucking mind and pissed herself, watching the entire thing go down.

Meari immediately pukes everywhere, crying and screaming, completely shattered; which is the correct human reaction to witnessing something THAT god damn horrific. (Somehow the husband is extremely deaf to the chaos)

Sayoko tries to stop Meari from leaving, saying it’s raining and she should at least change clothes. Like we can just rewind to ten minutes ago and continue the evening as scheduled, baby girl.

Meari finally snaps back with “it feels disgusting” and bolts out into the storm.
She stops under a streetlight, still reeling because OF COURSE SHE FUCKING IS, throws up again, and tries to process the fact that she just witnessed the most psychologically catastrophic event in human fucking history. The chapter ends with Meari saying she hadn’t thrown up in a long time… thanks to Sayoko.

Final panel: Sayoko standing in the doorway, staring out into the rain. And that’s it. No decompression. No emotional CPR. Just roll credits and let the reader deal with it...

Listen… I closed the entire internet after that chapter. The whole motherfuckin thing. I went and played some Hello Kitty Island Adventures after that cause I needed a palate cleanser and his name is Cinnamaroll (╥◡ ╥ )

Chapter 36 better come with a therapist and a cup of tea because lawd hammercy...

Aaaaaaand that’s when I drop this and never come back. I DO NOT wish to see the build up to this. Thank you for warning people! (⊙…⊙ )

No problem! (๑•ㅂ•)و✧

Only by reading your spoiler I'm already feeling like playing Stardew Valley to clear my soul, wth was that
Yea I think I'll drop this before it gets that bad, sad to see it turn out like that

Same! I could even tolerate the weird barf kiss, but that… yeah, no. I can’t even reassure myself it won’t get worse because I'd probably be lying to myself ( T n T )

At this point, I genuinely don’t see how this ends happily. If it somehow does, I'll be shook. SHOOK I TELL YOU ( T ∇ T ")

This is definitely some strange kink…

I dont really think so, when bodily functions are portrayed its in a way thats from shock usually, sure that one dude from highschool WAS weird but tbh i felt like it was more so from being seen as kind or wtv. Its not really written as a kink but u can tell the author has an interest in it, if that makes sense? Like i guess it shoes raw emotion best in their view when writing

what the actual FUCK